Kenapa?

Why have things turned out this way?? Why are you keeping quiet??

Am I no longer the friend you think I am?? Am I someone whom you see as a thorn in your eye??

Why do I always have to wait?? Why do I always have to apologise first??

I dont think the friendship can last. I feel left out. I dont need this treatment. I think a Cold War has already started.

I really hate it when we are together and you talk amongst yourselves.

You people are in your own league. I can feel it already.

I know I did somethings that were uncalled for but did u have to ignore me because of what I did??

Everyone makes mistakes, its just that I made a little more than usual.

I try to be nice to everyone, I dont want to reveal the ugly side of me. I really dont want to.

I feel more comfortable with the other people around me.

I thought I had a good sense of judgement of character of people. But obviously I'm wrong.

I feel sad that things have turned out this way.

I will be moving, definitely.... and I would definitely want to forget this so-called 'friendship'.

My Trip To Bangkok in Pictures

Surveys and more surveys

Woke up @ 5 plus this morning as I did not dispatch the surveys. Was halfway ironing my clothes and halfway dispatching. Sianzzz.... Managed to finish all but one of the surveys. Thought that I could dispatch it when I was in school. I quickly took a shower, dressed up and then took the lrt. Reached school at around 0800 hrs and when I reached my desk, I discovered that there was some Oscar thingy going on!! Was a little panicky but I stayed on course. After making some slight adjustments, I managed to get some help from Ellen and Lisa. You girls were great! I really appreciate the help that you have given me....

Spoke to Adeline, Desmond and Xin Rui while waiting for Jeff and Vincent to come out of the office. Ate lunch @ 3 pm with Jeff, Vincent, Chop and Alden. After lunch, I headed back to office to start printing the certificates for the Habits of Mind. Was kinda slow after lunch, made a couple of mistakes while printing the certificates. Didn't feel like working after lunch anyway.

Finished work @ around 6 plus. Bought a bottle of rootbeer from the nearby convenience store and while walking home, I saw SL, in her nice-looking white and black dress, walking towards me. I gave a smile and said Hi although I dont know if she heard it as there was still some rootbeer in my mouth!!!

I am so relieved to be @ home....

Eye Infection

Went to see the doctor about this irritating pimple that I found in my left skin under my left eye. The doctor had to remove it by removing all the pass. After it was removed, I looked like this :

A bad state that Im in.....

My 168th Post!

Woo hoo!!! This is my 168th post... I didnt realise that I've had so many posts already! Im so tired these days...dont know what is happening to me!

Feeling Sick

Stomach has been giving me problems last friday. I think it must have been the coffee that I bought from Cold Storage. Today has been better. I was supposed to meet Rachel for dinner but just to be on the safe side, I had to cancel it! Sorry Rachel!

Had lunch @ Banquet before going to North Vista for band practice while I was going down the escalator, I heard someone calling me from behind. It was Priscilla and 2 other girls from the band. Priscilla reminded me to get her Blue Ridge Saga and Seagate Overture and I told her that I would get it today.

Practice went well today, I suppose. We played Into The Joy of Spring and Majestia. It was quite a complex piece with all the different timings but we managed to play the piece throughout and I think that was more important. Majestia was played by the Main Band during the Vista Musica II concert and so I knew what the piece sounded like although I've not played the piece before.

Haircut and a good read

Happy with my performance today and felt really good. Decided to get my hair cut today so after work, I went home, changed and went to Compass Point. Monkey smsed me to change S$400 to baht. I think it amounted to 7, 100 baht...After changing money, I went to have my hair cut. No customers today so it was fast! Bought a cup-of-corn and while I was walking back home, I saw X and said hi to her. She told me that she just borrowed books from the library and I showed her my book as well. We talked a bit more before we said goodbyes.

Reached home and as I was about to turn on my laptop, the music from the Sengkang caller group rang and I wondered who from Sengkang would call me at this hour?? I know quite certainly that my other 3 colleagues wont call me. It was X who called me! I answered it, of course, and she was saying that she is @ Starbucks and since she saw me with a book, I could join her if I wanted to and no obligations. Guys, when a beautiful lady calls you and asks her to join her, would you say no?? Of course not! So I had a shower, changed and brought my book down. I was going out from my home when I saw Christian coming back from work. I said "Guten abend" to him and he said that he liked my shirt (I was wearing the away Germany jersey) and at that moment, I didnt realise what shirt I was wearing! Christian is by the way, a German and also my neighbour.

Went down to Compass Point with Christian and saw Lincoln on the way down while he was going up. Talked to Christian about which parts of Germany were nice and what was there to see. I said goodbye to him before I reached Starbucks and saw X inside. She was asking "How come you were so fast" and "When I called you, you were at home??" I told her that I stayed @ Compass Heights and she said "No wonder lar....I'm not impressed" "Ha ha" But I knew she was just joking... I got myself a Chocolate Cream Chip Ice Blended and settled down to read.

For the past 20 mins, X and I were silent. Each reading our own books. After coming back from the ladies, she asked me what book am I reading and I told her about how the sailors forced a U-boat to surface and while the sailors in the U-boat were abandoning it, 2 sailors went into the U-boat to search for any intelligence that they could lay their hands on. X then told me the book that she was reading was on Plato and his philosophy. She then went on about the different books that she read, how long she hasnt been reading etc etc. She was talking to me with such enthusiasm and finesse that I could feel how passionate she was about reading :) And it felt really great too because I havent been talking to someone about books in a very long time!

I think the both of us must do this again!!!!

Ling's House

Didnt do much @ work today. Kinda disappointed as I was doing well for the last 2 days. Went to Khatib FCC to take IPPT with Jeff. As usual, I failed my broad jump and I didnt want to take the run as there is a Choice meeting.

After IPPT, I drove to AMK Central where Jeff and I had dinner. After that, I drove back to Sengkang, had a shower before I left for Ling's house. It was my first time there and naturally, I had to look at the map. I generally knew the overall direction but exactly were I didnt know. Meeting went ok, several burning issues were ironed out and I think there will be more issues to be ironed out...

New Deodorant

Bought a new deodorant today from Cold Storage. Met Desmond as well who just came next to me and said hi! He was doing some shopping with his mum. Wish him all the best for the results!

Accelerate by Lynx

A treasure chest full of coins....in a shoebox??

A Close-up View

Feeling Satisfied and Happy

It has been a good day overall. No stress and no one bugging me. Was doing the invigilation for 3T9 and 3T10. The guys were ok but a bit distruptive but other than that, it was great! After invigilation, I continued with my work. Had lunch with Janice and Ellen and after that continued with work again.

The reason why I enjoyed my work because I was listening to some of my favourite music!!!

The VCD I was looking for

Army Daze - The Movie

(The one I told you people that I was searching about @ Laser Flair)

Getting Something

Slept late as I was watching the England vs Macedonia match. A lot of near misses but no goals to show for it. Was nodding my head most of the time. Finally, I woke up and hung my already washed clothes from the washing machine.

Went back and watched the 2nd half. Still no goals. Dad woke me up at around 1015 hours and asked if I want to go church at 11 am. I said I did while still getting up from my sleep. After church, had Char Siew rice for lunch and it tasted great! For those staying in Sengkang, you can try the Char Siew stall INSIDE Cold Storage. Tastes nice and cheaper from the stall up in the Kopitiam.

Did some work on my laptop before heading to snooze for a while. Woke up at 1818 hours, bathed, changed and then headed down to Tampines Mall. I saw Duff (my former colleague with SATS as an Aviation Screening Agent) and we talked about what happened after life @ the airport. It was definitely good to see someone that I have worked with. We talked all the way until we reached Tampines Mall where he had to meet a friend.

As for me, I strolled to Tampines Mall and especially to the music and VCD / DVD shops where I wanted to find the Army Daze VCD. Couldnt find it there. I popped over to Century Square, went to Sembawang and asked the staff there if they have Army Daze. He told me that the shop dosent have but asked me to try Laser Flair, which I did of course and Laser Flair had the Army Daze VCD. I was glad. My trip to Tampines wasnt wasted.

Took the bus back, had dinner, watched Army Daze, had a good laugh, ironed my clothes and typing this post. Guess I have to end it here. Will scan a picture of the Army Daze movie poster and put it up. Logging off and its time for a shower and a shave.....

Band Practice

Dropped mooncake off @ Grandma's Place before going to North Vista for band practice. Not many members came today. I guess they had something on. We started off with Singapore Postcard. Its ok I guess, but I dont really like playing that piece as there are a lot of off and on beats for my part.

Had a break for 15 minutes before we continued with another piece entitled "In The Joy of Spring" by James Swearingen. Quite challenging and I look forward to playing that piece! Other than that, we packed up and I left for home.

The sky was still hazy and so I try to stay indoors most of the time. Went to Compass Point to buy a new box of DVDs, dinner and to update my bank book. After updating, I saw the Alumni Band members (the younger group, of course) and said hi to them. They are a great bunch of people I can tell u that.

Had dinner while watching the telly. The shows are quite boring these days. Dunno what happened to Discovery Channel. Always show the American Chopper and Engineering shows. So irritating! Whatever happened to Battlefield Detectives and the other interesting shows that I used to watch?

No Frontier

If life is a river and your heart is a boat

And just like a water baby, baby born to float

And if life is a wild wind that blows way on high

And your heart is Amelia dying to fly

Heaven knows no frontiers and I've seen Heaven in your eyes

And if life is a bar room in which we must wait

Round the man with his fingers on the ivory gates

Where we sing until dawn of our fears and our fates

And we stack all the dead men in self addressed crates

In your eyes faint as the singing of a lark

That somehow this black night

Feels warmer for the spark

Warmer for the spark

To hold us 'til the day

When fear will lose its grip

And Heaven has its ways

Heaven knows no frontiers

And I've seen heaven in your eyes

If your life is a rough bed of brambles and nails

And your spirit's a slave to man's whips and man's jails

Where you thirst and you hunger for justice and right

And your heart is a pure flame of man's constant night

In your eyes faint as the singing of a lark

That somehow this black night

Feels warmer for the spark

Warmer for the spark

To hold us 'til the day when fear will lose its grip

And Heaven has its ways

And Heaven has its ways

When all will harmonise

And you know what's in our hearts

The dream will realise

Heaven knows no frontiers

And I've seen Heaven in your eyes

Heaven knows no frontiers

And I've seen Heaven in your eyes

A Hazy Shade of October

The weather hasnt been that good... Forest fires have been burning in Indonesia and soon everyone in Singapore is either coughing, having a sore throat or falling sick. I, myself, have been hit personally although it isnt that bad... Had a slight sore throat but have been drinking like tons of water and taking pills of strepils.

I've got band practice today! Yay! So looking forward to it.... Wonder what new piece Im going to play. But Im going to gym first before going for band practice..

Busy and Tired

Exams have started for the kids and although no more teaching is required, there is still lots to be done. Survey after survey is needed. What am I supposed to do with them? Churn out numbers after numbers?

But, no choice, its my portfolio. I wonder when can all these be over? Getting fatter by the minute...argh!!!! Think I'll be left on the shelf for quite a while now.....

Cleaning Up

It was yet another lazy Saturday. Woke up at around 8 am. Had breakfast while watching Thirteen Days. After watching, I was still slacking! Had lunch. Watched GOAL! on DVD and after that, cleaned up my study area.

It has been in a mess for quite a while now. Took me about an hour to clear everything up while the rain was pouring outside. How nice it was to sleep now, I thought! Im pretty happy with the cleaniness of my study area.

Tomorrow will be another day.........