New Year's Eve and The J Syndrome

2008 is just a couple of hours away and as I reflect on what happened the past year, I would say that things were pretty ok except for the past few months coming to the end of the year.

I am being hit by the J Syndrome AGAIN and as much as I would like NOT to get hit by the J Syndrome, it hit me again this morning. And it hit me bad. I have been thinking, I have been so nice to J but she finds my concern and attention overbearing and overwhelming. That's after she got pregnant. I'm trying very hard to give her my moral support and encouragement but I find that whatever I say and do turns into poison. She didnt want this and didnt want that and I acceeded her request and so I did what she wanted and EVEN inspite of that, I still get pushed away. Pushed so much to the edge that I have fallen off it.

We used to have a blog where we shared stuff and as I was typing on that blog, I realised that the posts that she wrote were deleted. I guess she really didnt want our friendship anymore and to me, it was the last straw. I am sick and tired of wasting my bloody time and energy on someone who isn't appreciative of what I'm doing. I thought that we could still be, at least friends, but no, she wanted to destroy the last thing that was holding our friendship together - Our Blog - and when I sent her an email, she refused or can't be bothered to reply. I am frustrated, tired and angry at having to deal with all this shit. If you want to burn the bridge, it shall be burnt. I have thought carefully about it and J isn't worth the friendship, it isnt worth it at all.

She is causing me so much hurt and pain that I think the wounds will take a very long time to heal. J once said that she didnt want to lose a good friend in me. But I think she just did.

I just hope that 2008 will be a good year for me.

Today

Nothing much happened today.

Work felt good today.

I'm so looking forward to 2008 and In-Camp Training as well. Ha. You guys must think that I'm mad! I believe things will start to get better next year.

Potluck Lunch @ Winny's House

Had great fun @ Winny's House today.

Great fun, food and company!

Christmas Day

I think this is one of the best christmas' I ever had.

Went for midnight mass as usual and then went over to Mike & Judith's place for a christmas gathering with the caroling gang. It was great fun listening to stories that were normal but got twisted along the way. Just reached home at 5 plus in the morning! I have never been out so late before but its Christmas anyway.

Opened presents from Monkey and J. Monkey gave me a Pool trainer jersey while J gave me a mens face protector (how appropriate cos I needed that) and shower gel from Body Shop. I think she must have noticed the many pimples I have on my face! Haha. Thanks J!

On a personal note, I try not to be sensitive lar but I find that she is avoiding me. It feels weird cos we have been quite close these past 5 months and then suddenly shes withdrawing back. Aiyah, why must I be affected by her? I have got better things to do then get bogged down by her reactions.

Looking forward to the lunch later today @ 1230 hrs @ Winny's place!

Christmas Dinner 2007

Family photo without the Char Bor

Busy on the Eve of Eve

I spent the eve of eve like any other except that I was looking for this special gift that I have always wanted to give J and let me tell you this that this gift is damn hard to find! It's the Kit Kat Sakura or Cherry Blossom...I knew it was at Cold Storage Sengkang but when I went down today, to my horror, it was out of stock!!! Then after mass and lunch, I went to Tampines Mall and Century Square, crossing my fingers that it would be there but to no avail. I was at Shop and Save (Century Square) and decided that the next best thing to the Pink Kit Kat was Hershey's. I bought 2 packets.

My parents and I went down to AnchorPoint to watch Shimon carol with his friends. I was hoping that the Cold Storage @ AnchorPoint had the Pink Kit Kat. Went there and....nothing.
=( We had dinner and before we watched Shimon sing, we went to the toilet. While Dad & I were waiting for mum to come out, I went into Guardian to take a look. Lo and behold, there it was! there were about 10 packets of the Pink Kit Kat and I was thinking oh my god! I finally found it!!! I wanted J to be happy with her present so I bought 4 boxes with 2 inside each box so there were 8 Pink Kit Kats for her. I really hope that she likes them and the trouble I went through to get it for her. She knows that the Pink Kit Kat is very hard to get. I promised her that I would get it for her and I'm just really glad that I did!

Shimon and his band of merry carollers

J's present without the Pink Kit Kat

The Pink Kit Kat Box

Wedding Anniversary Mass

The wedding mass went very well! But I didnt take any pictures cos I was so darn busy! It was good seeing my mum's friends again =) Didn't have much time to talk to them though...

Parents 30th Wedding Annivesary

It's been an exciting week. Work has slowed down and today my siblings and I (less the char bor) will be celebrating my parents 30th Wedding Anniversary @ the Church of the Immaculate Heart of Mary at 3 pm.

It's raining now as I write this blog but my spirit isn't dampened. Rain, in this instance, comes as a shower of blessings from God =)

I will need to stop writing now and print a few things that my mum has respectfully requested me to print and will definitely upload pics here! So stay tuned....

Yesterday's Caroling

I must say that it was fun yesterday to see so many young people around! Talked to some new people and got to know them and it has been interesting. Got to know some more people from Choice as well =) Overall, I must say it has been wonderful and I enjoyed the party. J was completely forgotten from my mind and its of much relief.

Difficulty

It has been difficult trying to adapt and understand the way J is reacting towards me. I think probably the reason why is because I was very close to her and the way that J is treating me is like I'm a thorn in her flesh. Nothing I do will ever look good in her eyes.

I actually planned to give her a special christmas present but since our relationship is somewhat strained, I think better not since it might give her my overwhelming concern and attention. The thing is that I actually bought some components of the present and wanted to give it a personal touch. So I guess I will only wish her a Merry X'mas then. However, I think I should have it done, just in case, she gave me a present (if I'm lucky enough and if she isnt in one of her moods)

Never mind..I will lay off her for the next few months and see how things go. I must have my mind on other things so that my heart and mind wont be resting on such issues. If she isn't bothered then why must I? Heck. I'm going to enjoy the carolling laters!

Last Pics during the Trip

I've reached Singapore already. As promised, here are the pics that I managed to upload them today.

Suntech

Melting Pot Restaurant

In Memory of the Fallen during the Campaign 1948 - 1960

First impression upon entering the grounds

Ponds where the different fishes are kept

Sleeping dog

Fishes in the Pond

Taking my photo??

Chicken Houses

Another dog sleeping

Look at how BIG the fishes are!!!

Restoran Kolam Ikan

The 1st 2 fishes

The 3rd Fish

Tombstone of my Great-Grandfather, Mr Oh Teow Kee

Close up view

Tombstone from another view

Roasted Prok, anyone?

Ancestral Home

Old Town White Coffee

The Manhattan Fish Market

Hawkers hawking away

Mizz Bistro

Seats on the Bus

On the way home....

The Rest of the Days

There has been much going on these past few days. You will not be able to see the photos currently as I'm experiencing some technical difficulties in uploading the photos. I've had much fun travelling to some new places like Restoran Kolam Ikan in Kulim. The fish is solid!

As for today, we went to visit the resting place of my great-grandfather who bought the plot of land. Its interesting to note that the tombstone was quite big and on top of the hill as well. I will find out more on whatever I can find out about my late great-grandfather =)

4th Day & Feeling Slightly Better

Yesterday I was feeling slightly better after drinking tons of water and gargling some medication that Aunty Jo gave to me. Nothing much happened except for the usual eating =)
I've got more pics to upload!!!!

Carissa Boey - my niece which I'm seeing her for the 1st time!

Aiyoh, frown until like that =(

Carissa in a more relaxed mood

The naughty Amelia and the sickly I

Kung Fu Wannabes (Lynette and Amelia)

Went here last night for dinner

Smiley

QueensBay Mall

Since when was the Matrix an MPV??

If only this house is mine...

Jalan Rambutan

Teh Peng - Killer

Char Kway Teow

3rd Day and Sick =(

It's the 3rd day of my trip and I'm not feeling well =( what a bummer. Nothing much to report except that there are more photos as usual!

Inside of the House

Outside of the House

Sungei Ara

My uncle's Agency

Had lunch @ Noodle Station

My lunch - Wanton Noodle

1st 2 days in Penang

This post will be a combination of 1st and 2nd Dec.

1st Dec - Day 1

Woke up with much enthusiasm about the trip. Dreaming of the char kway teow, kway teow th'ng and other local delicacies that my 2nd hometown has to offer. Started to pack my stuff and after packing my stuff, had to give the bag to my mum who will bring it down to the car. Mum & Dad had a wedding to attend and would later go straight to Clementi as planned.

On my side, I ironed my shirt, had a shower, went down to get lunch for Monkey & Tua Pui. Quickly consumed my lunch and off I went. Took the train to Outram Park where I changed to get to Clementi. The rendezvous for Mum, Squirtly and I.

Upon reaching Clementi, we waited for a while before the private taxi driver came. Going through both customs was a breeze. We left Clementi @ around 3 plus and reached Senai airport @ 4 something. Flight departure was 1920 hours but we went there early in case unforseen circumstances happened.

Yeah! Dunkin' Donuts!!

Inside Senai Airport

Bonia Sembonia Valentino Rudy

Departure Gate 4

Took this pic from the side

On the tarmac

Leaving On A Jet Plane

Plane took off @ 1930 hours and reached Penang @ 2020 hours. Got our luggage and waited for Uncle Boy to give us a lift back to Sungei Ara. Once we got into the MPV, we headed straight for kway teow th'ng! It felt so good after eating it. Went home after that to have a shower and sleep.

2nd Dec - Day 2

Woke up to a brand new day at Sungei Ara. Liza dropped us off at Aunty Daisy's place and from there we went to have breakfast @ Super Tanker. Had curry mee, gu leng peng (AGAIN) and this pancake thingy. After breakfast, went to church =)

Curry Mee

Church of the Holy Spirit (Penang version)

Inside the Holy Spirit

Just took this cos it felt nice

After church, Aunty Daisy actually wanted to bring us to this place for lunch but as most of the stalls were closed, she decided to get Chee Cheong Fun for us instead. We drove slightly down and we had coconuts!!!

This place was opposite where the chee cheong fun was bought

Coconut with Straw

Ahhh! Attack of the Killer Coconut!

Coconut died after I sliced it in 2!

Aunty Daisy's house

Rested for a while at Aunty Daisy's house before Christina drove mum and I to Queensbay Mall. I must say the view outside Queensbay Mall is magnificent! We walked around the shop lots, I bought 2 shirts from Padini, went to Starbucks for drinks, went back to Sungei Ara and rested for a while before going to Aunty Bee's place to have dinner and discuss on what needs to be done for grandparents mass tomorrow (which is today).

Outside Queensbay Mall

Magnificent view

Queensbay Mall

Goggles

Check out the Blueberry Cheesecake!!!

On the way to Aunty Bee's place

Road junction

Dinner

Aunty Bee's house

Christmas Tree @ Sungei Ara