Difficulty

It has been difficult trying to adapt and understand the way J is reacting towards me. I think probably the reason why is because I was very close to her and the way that J is treating me is like I'm a thorn in her flesh. Nothing I do will ever look good in her eyes.

I actually planned to give her a special christmas present but since our relationship is somewhat strained, I think better not since it might give her my overwhelming concern and attention. The thing is that I actually bought some components of the present and wanted to give it a personal touch. So I guess I will only wish her a Merry X'mas then. However, I think I should have it done, just in case, she gave me a present (if I'm lucky enough and if she isnt in one of her moods)

Never mind..I will lay off her for the next few months and see how things go. I must have my mind on other things so that my heart and mind wont be resting on such issues. If she isn't bothered then why must I? Heck. I'm going to enjoy the carolling laters!